Was very emotional ytd midnite, upset, angry, hatred.. every negativity clouded my mind.
Thanks to those who were wif me ytd nite.
but, lol, couldnt control myself. sorry, but yea....
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really, dinnoe wads wrong wif her.
and its like not that i dunnoe im such a useless person.
dieting lately, its difficult when everyone wants to treat me to food =.=, preferrably no food, but strictly even so, non fat food only! and not after 8pm.rawr.
Anyway, went out wif my couzins and auntie, and my jie jie ytd.
I really love my jie, haha, she bought alot of things for me and i had alot of fun wif her. i miss u!
THANKS
Went church today.. i was desperate to get out of the house, im sorry if its such a stoopid excuse but yea.... was the like first time i went to church ALONE, walked in alone.. astonished. shocked. that i actually go back after like how many months of not going and listening to the pastor's msg.haa. but stepping in its like coming back to somewhere familiar but yet not familiar. its a weird feeling, but i tink overall today was okay? =/, haha, church had my favourite song, AmazingGrace, and pastor khong did the preaching which was, more enjoyable to me. Special thanks to MS and hwee, made today;s church not so bad today =]
ermm, then i went to dad's house for dinner, he bought storybooks for me, wadever that i requested... nice? =/ yeaps. i love my dad =] He listens to my part of story too.. He loves me. He does things for me. He helps me. He explains. He doesnt blame me. He cares. He teaches me. He lets me have a choice. I love him.
Captivated wif the books :
a million little pieces
a place called here
I watcheds spideyman 3 again... still felt alot for the storyline.. yups hatred and vengence can really bring great power, power so great that it devours you wholly. in everything we do, we have a choice to do wads right.. but why do i always seee myself choosing to do the bad one? =/ i feel like im the person, Eddie, who cant let go of the great demon of hatred and vengence and in the end dying along wif it as the explosion takes place.. Its still nice that the bells knocked the demon out. hah. its called venom? poison.. yeps...
Still cant help feeling emo and troubled.
I cant help but go back to my emo self. I dun get the unreasonable ways of life. I dun get it! Why am i always the one who does things. Why am i the one who gets blamed. Why am I the one who must listen everytime. Why am i the one who pple calls me as "unfeeling". Why am I the one whom is regarded as trash. Why do i mean nothing to everybody. Why am i just me. Why cant i believe some things. Why do i revert back to always the way i used to be. Why Why Why.. Why am i not strong enough. Why am i so ever weak. Why do you expect so much of me. Why cant i just do it. Why cant i be the way who u ever wanted. Why is life like this. Why do i always feel so inadequate. Why am i getting used to hiding when i dun wanna face up. Why am i getting used to being someone im not for all to see.
perhaps its all just a facade, its all just an act.
I'll miss you guys and duhh haidie!~
hmm, shall take more pics to share =P
and hope that everything will be fine after that, tho i doubt so. i was giddy n cold sweating during dance anywayyy =[
在心里的深处,总会有一个部分是黑暗的。
在最美丽的笑容,总会有不是真实的时候。
在最专注的眼神中, 总会有人看不出来你的感受。
在最想对你诉说的时候,你也不在我身旁。
在最快乐的时侯, 也可以充满着悲伤
在最不愉快的时候,却可以不流泪
在最热恋的恋爱中,还可以很痛
在你眼前的我,可能不是我。
你认识的我,也可能不会再出现
10:28 PM
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Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Im such a bz bee lately.. haha
Loving music forest.
Anyway went to cut and highlight me hair today.
pls dun get a shock
since its like damn bright =.=
yay fann wong rawks@
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PROFILE
[Name]Shi Ying
[egg crack]18th Nov 1992
[skoOl]PL(S)
[CCA]Badminton/D ARTS
[Hobbies]Acting/Singing/Dancing
[Height] 164.5cm
[Spoken languages]English, Chinese and Rojak Dialects
[Music Schools]Lee Wei Song school of music - 2004
Music Story - 2006-2007
Hai Die ( Music Forest) - 2008
[Competitions]CSS ( 1 and 2 )
Teenage Icon Finalist 2007
School Competitions
[Performances]Community Centers Events
RCC Events
Outside Performances - Performing Group of MS
Teenage Icons- Teenage Bday Bash at DXO 2007
Loves
Fann
FCBC
SF
PL
My fwens
Computer
TIs
singing
acting
dancing
experiences
handphone
Wislist
1. Pink or Red and Black Laptop 2. Pink or Red and Black DS nintendo
3. More pooh bears
4. More bags =]
5. More clothes
6. Renovate my room
7. Nice watches
8. Pets (dogs or rabbits)
*Hope my ambitions/dreams can come true*
Ambition: Actress/Singer
Wants: To grow taller
Needs: To get slimmer
Aspire: To improve in acting and singing
Wishes: To learn acting,dancing and singing
Hopes : For joy and love
Thinks : Of getting whiter and prettier (like how i dunnnoe)
Sees: Getting into Mediacorp as my goal
Believes: That hardwork do pay off
Tries: TO do better in studies
Pray: That dreams do come true