hah.. went out wib michelle today.. had funn.. and spent alot of money =[[[ some pics~ sian tmr got sch agn.. bishh
12:49 AM
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Sunday, March 30, 2008
pulau ubin.. was ok luhh..
tiring.. and the sun was so hot..
yarr.. then my group suppose take care 2 kids. 2 boys.. tiring lahh.. one quite guai another quite naughty. lol.. yarr and the got one k2 wanna follow his gor gor then come out grp.. omg he is such a monster!! HAHA... anyhow slap pple and hit pple... violent.. haha.. and he omg.. keep violating me.. LOL.. haha lie on top of me.. FREAK. yarr.... isobel was like " omg he groping u lahh" HAHA and jamie was like " CRAP i hate kids" LOL.. FUNNEH.. yea... mr lim hold that small boy, e k2 one like his son like tat lahh.. and he carried him.. i tink.. lol pracitising fer his going-to-be-born child? LOL... HAHA.. kk... yea.. i still hate the sun tho... LOL..
KAY>> its a freakkish day. shit im damn fat. VER FAT =[[[[[ how to jian more!!!! LOL.... kk.. D'arts getting bzier... got competition coming up. wad else..
hmmmm.. must continue to go towards my aim = to be ming xing. 10% talent 90% hard work. JY JY JY!~~~~ Anyway.. teenage icon 2008 starting soon!! GO JOIN GO JOIN~ more info.. go teenage webby. http://www.teenage.com.sg/
HAAAA da guang gao.. LOL =P cherish every moment. love every day. tomorrow will be brand new. cant waste time anymore. shall go towards my dream. a girl can dream rite? =]
12:10 AM
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Friday, March 28, 2008
wow.. i tink taiwan is so dam cool!~~ hahaha...just watched kuai le xin qi tian aka, happy sunday.. I TINK.. on chn 56.. HAHA damn funneh lah!! omg... so interesting how the "teachers"cum"judges"cum"professionals" like so professional.. they accept pple dee siao mann.. and keep smiling.. OMG.. so cool... and they dun even care if they make fun of themselves... whne they performing.. they just "我没有做好来但是我做到了" de attitude.. and admit this on TV...so cooll.... HAHA.. raelly pro.. like bao xiao bo and bao xiao song and huang shu jun and lin zi jiao.. YES.. alll ver ver ver good =] i enjoyed the show alot.. oh and theres like this two pple in the show that can like mo fang until ver GOOD.. really.. and then theres a guy.. wahalo.. act big shot.. but wah make the whole program ver entertaining.. he challenged the judges and want to take over.. BEST~ but yea.. its also one thing to appreciate la... his daring.. LOL.. kay... shiying nid to learn that 得失心 cannot too great.. YES.. must learn..
kk.. anyway today sports day. HAHA.. ok luhh.. but tiring.. LOL.. and shit i hate the sun.. cause got mass run and i ran!! HEE GO CHEW HOUSE! haha i ran lorrrrrrr.. for chew and archer.. so nice rite? haha.. yarr shitness is the sun la... u tubj i got tio tanned la!! I DUN WAN DUN WAN DUN WAN!!!! aRGH.. freak!! LOL.. anyway heres the results this year: archer - mass cheer competition chew - pri sch champion (as always) dodsworth - sec sch champion ( as always) chew - overall champion ( as always)
yarr then went home then afternn went back to sch for CCA.. SIANNESS.. dance dance dance.. but i tink can jian fei cause i ran... such a big 3 rounds and danced.. HAHA.. and skipped some meals!! I NID TO JIAN FEI :D LOL
HAHA yarr.. shit i dun wan kana tanned and tmr got CIP at pulau ubin.. im gonna die.. see ah.. wear jacket = whitening + less mosquito!!
U NOE U NOE U NOE!!
arghhhh
-pray hard it rains tmr- i hate the sun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
11:59 PM
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Wednesday, March 26, 2008
ytd chiong-ed project thru the night.. like until 2.45am. crap.. then wake up so earleh go sch. and auntie bel just... -cant wake up- not going sch.. LOL.. best luh. basically today gong-ed in sch. SIANN... haha.. ver funneh lorr jamie today eat lunch and recess wib me.. the fish too hot for her!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA she face red/pink pink de... yao ku yao ku de gan jue! HAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHHA .... LOL LOL ROFL! heeeee... shiying was super super tired today.... ok chapel was like wadever.. haha.. sorrie sia.. im not some holy pple.. i stoned during chapel.. abit doze offf... HARLOW>> try slpin everyday at 3am.. and i bet u will do the same.. HAHA
hmm.. wad else.. oh.. i went hougang myself just now.. lol... go return books and borrow books.. amazed that i can actualli spend like 1h30m in the library ownself, diam diam find book and read. HAHA...
i like storehs.. it tells u de fairytales in life i like storehs it gives you great understanding i like storehs.. it tells u de reality of life i like storehs it gives you more to believe in.
i like acting. it allows u to be anyone u wanna be i like acting it allows u to forget hu u really are i like acting it allows u to go back to the past i like acting it allows u to show ure emotions and feelings
i like singing it gives u achievements i like singing it gives u relaxation i like singing it allows u to express ureself i like singing cause it gives u confidence
everything... 雨后总有晴天, 就算再大的狂风暴雨, 乌云永远也遮不住温暖的太阳.
smiles =D
继续微笑 完美只是一个目标
11:14 PM
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Tuesday, March 25, 2008
okay.. i deleted some posts.. cause i found them redundant to be left there.. its for me to know and those hu alrd noe to noe... HAHA.. dont need to be spreaded or attention-ed upon..
yeps anw..lol. err.. today.. tiring day.. ver ver ver... haha.. i was gong-ed n sch. and jamie tired until fever.. tsk tsk tsk. hiazzz.. pathetic hor secondary sch life.. HAHA.. anyway.. yea.. went haidie.. i rally enjoy haidie alott.. lol.. cause there ver nice... ver family. ver fwen fwen. pple there also ver nice.. since i youngest there, they also ver qian jiu wo. haha.. LOL happiness~ hehe.. theres really no space for sadness there lorrr... lol
kao// home= living hell sianess.. i hateit.hateher
11:15 PM
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kao.i cant forget the songs of concrete angel and the Jesus died for me. LOL. freakness.. kao. today bz day at sch. alot of things happened. HECK.then j and i came me hSEand we watched shen hua! shi gan ren de.. so loving.. crap are they crazie.. they scream at the slightest thing. one arrow shoot thru. they scream!! KNS. LOL. kk.. then.. errr. crazy us keep comparing who fatter. obviously me!! LOL creep im damn fat. irritating. jian fei jian fei!!~~
LOL. ok.. so we all crazy crazy say.. wanna get gastric flu. lol.. then dunnid to eat le.. HAA craziness. oh and jamie can cry damn fast. i second. isobel slow! HAHA i mean acting wise.. siao one jamie. LOL.. i must really act out then can. HAa
kayy... hah me and iso talked on e phone after that.. abt ___ LOL shhh..
kk. creep and teachers are damn dao man.. irritating. wad else...
hmm.. He had no beauty nor majesty.. LALALA~~ concrete angel~~~ lalala..
ACTING
holocaust is freak.
Thru the wind and the rain. she stands hard as a stone.~~ concrete ANGEL!!! =[
She walks to school with the lunch she packed Nobody knows what she's holdin' back Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday She hides the bruises with linen and lace
The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask It's hard to see the pain behind the mask Bearing the burden of a secret storm Sometimes she wishes she was never born
Through the wind and the rain She stands hard as a stone In a world that she can't rise above But her dreams give her wings And she flies to a place where she's loved Concrete angel
Somebody cries in the middle of the night The neighbors hear, but they turn out the lights A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate When morning comes it'll be too late[Repeat Chorus]
A statue stands in a shaded place An angel girl with an upturned face A name is written on a polished rock A broken heart that the world forgot[Repeat Chorus]
1:16 AM
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Sunday, March 23, 2008
after fighting and quarrelling the next part is acting and escaping. running and avoiding. going back "home" and i feel as if im just acting. act like nth happen. act as if its ok. act as if i dun care. do i like have a choice? HAIZ.
i really dun like it. yet i understand not everyhting can go my way. i hate it. yes i hate it. its difficult to act u noe. and its a cover up. i dun wanna stay here. i wan tampines. i dun wan serangoon. just because of sch. i nid to go back. shit.
oh just now. went church. funneh. purposely go late. lol. go so early fer wad. lol. i just sun bian go so taht easier to go back to srg la.. HAHA pple say i sian sian de. during service. ermm... ahberden?
kk.. then after service, open cell. isobel is so pig.. keep goping. TSK TSK TSK. LOL. kk.. then wad did u learn during sanctification. or rather share abt it. I really ahf nth to share?!?!? cause... i was practically stoning during most of the sermons..REALLY..
HAH. nvm, shiying sucks. sucks totally.
lol. really. kao. todays performance, screwed up.
hate. emotions consumed me. lost it.
shi jian shi fou zhen de neng rang shang kou quan yu, hai shi shi jian zhi shi neng gou yong lai tao bi....
guess im not gonna stay home fer long nowadays... CRAP.
He had no beauty or majesty. a man of sorrows and familiar of sufferings.
God are u really there? were u really there in times of pain. were u really there carrying me and with me. were u really there? did u not plan these things in my life? were i not supposed to hate you fer the difficult times in life.
LOVE. what have i done to deserve love like this? did u really crush ure Son fer me? did He really die on the cross to overcome death? for death is so ugly. for death is so hurting. is it true? or rather.. am i even involved in it..
alot of qns. alot of ans. its just so difficult to believe.
wang bu liao ni de yan jing. wo bi zi ji qu xiang xin. sui ran zhen de bu rong yi. ye xu wo shi zhong hui fang qi. shi zhe nu li yan shi zi ji. cang zhe bu kan hui shou de zi yi ying cang wo zi ji.
wo hai pa. wo mei xing xin. wo pa wo hui fang qi.....
today sanctification. scarie. ok luh the front.. but later got like Lord's supper. HAH. freak. then the whole pple infront all kneel except. like 7 pple.. i scared luh.i keep looking beside me. cause not far away can see two boys also standing. i mean. but its like damn odd. u noe. CRAP. hah but i tell myself that they wun care abt me cause everibodie shud be concentrating on God. so even if i dun kneel, nvm. i just dun wanna be the only one. felt dam weird. dam wrong to not kneel. i noe shud. but.. din wan to. i dunnoe why.
great.then later sermon. pastor say abt wad insecurity bla bla bla. preciesly everything tat hui said before. kao? LOL. then wad go infront. wo hen you yu. but hui asked me if wanna go.. and i still you yu. then took her hand and went. even walking tere.. i was you yu-ing.. how to turn back. lol.. nvm.. then just go infront. pray.cry. then pastor ask if felt His love raise hand...i dunnoe.. so i din raise. but after that crying. i felt better. HAH. and in the midst of hui praying and pastor praying. i dunnoe. i felt tat i couldnt let go. really. cannot. maybe a little but i couldnt surrender totally. i tell myself must surrender hahah. but a part i noe " im not doing it"but thanks for a chance to cry. after that really felt more happy. yar. tonight. one of the happiest day le. amongst the week. xie xie ni. rang wo ku. resisting is hard.
great. now i noe wad to do. now i noe alot. yet i still cant let go completely. somehow i guess, if now go thru the whole sanctification weekend. i will still nt be able to praise, worship, kneel and be sanctified. somehow i just dun like, to haf everything going uphill and plunge down again. i dun wan it to happen. dun wan to do things that i will regret or i regret. i wanna lead chapel for leading chapel one day. i wanna be able to thank God for everything taht He's done. i wanna be able to achive the destiny and rmb His love.
i cant. dao di gai zhen me zuo.. is it rite to go church? is it rite to____ is it rite? is it rite. is it rite..
i cannot forgive cannot forget. wo hai shi hen ta.
12:15 AM
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Saturday, March 22, 2008
yuan lai jian dan gen shi xing fu.
staying at my dad's place . was alone today the whole morning and afternn cause he got work. though im so alone at home. but ye suan shi ge xiang shou. xiang shou zhe deng dai. xiang shou zhe yi ding de zi you. sui ran mei you she me hen duo de dong xi. bu yong mai hen gui de dong xi. mei you hen duo de dong xi ke yi rang zi ji jing qin xiang shou. dan ye suan shi kuai le.
ming tian. hen kuai jiu dao le.
ru guo hai you ming tian... ni xiang zhen yang zhuang ban ni de lian..
hai you ming tian..... zhen de tao yan ming tian. dan yuan neng mei you ming tian. zhi jie dao xing qi yi. hui dao xue xiao de gan jue ye ke yi hen hao. zhi shao hao guo zai..........
watched xiao hai bu ben er today. at dad's house. haha.. damn crap. cause i realised wad my mum does when she scolds me is so similar to there.. like wad she say and all.. kaoness.. haiz.. is it really so difficult to praise pple more.... lol...when was the lat time that we praise smone. we need the "key" to open others' hearts..crapness.. kaoness.. sianness.
anyway. ytd went fer sanctification. today too.. as in the weekend. lol. dunno lah. i dun even tink i went for the purpose of being sanctified. more of escape. lol.. and now i staying at my dad's house fer the weekends. i simply dun wanna go back to my mum's place. smhow i hate it there. crap. smhow go back jiu shi wen ting de gen ruan.
anyway. scantification is damn freakkie.. lol.. but most of the time i was stoning hu cares. lol. anyway. yar.. got praying and worship and talk. kao. pastor cried.err yarh.. praying that time dmn freak.. looked at pple all around.. all kneel all pray. freakness. then today even worse. during worship pastor said to kneel down during the music if u feel ____ to.. then the majority of pple all kneel down. omg.. except a minority and me. freakness. lol.. i dun like it. to be so odd one out.. but i was happy that i din kneel just because everyone is doing it. omg.. i was so scared i will be left alone standing. heng got other pple. phew. haizz... de video was super gruesome..yea.. but anw i feel damn wrong. to just go and stone. to just go and siam.. to just go to find escape. to just go cause i haf nth else to do. siann.. yarr.. but realli cant take it anymore..and its SANCTIFICATION week man.. lol. i am so not sanctified. shuo de rong yi zuo de nan. sianness. wad to do!??!?!!? wow.. and i feel rather lol.. that i haf been telling pple recently. i am not christian. anyway.lol . i dunn even noe hu am i? HAHA.. doesnt matter. weird is .. smone once told me. i just trying to act non-christian. but up to a certain extent i still believe in God. despite me saying i dont.. weird.. i really dunno. lol
crap sunday i still nid to go back to the so called "home" i hate it.. hate it. hate it. zhe me ban??? =[
pa wo zai ren bu zhu. pa wo zai ci hui dao cong qian. bu xiang yi hou. bu xi hou guo. wo bu yao shang tong. bu yao tao bi. bu yao zai xiang guo qu. bu yao zai wei she me er ku qi. bu xiang fang qi. bu xiang xie qi. zai yi ci bei kun zhu. bu neng ben xiang qian fang de feng jing. shuo de rong yi zuo de ke nan. 不要让我一生绝望 ..
hmm.. crapness.. ytd do some online maths quiz.. AHA and i slept at 3.23+am ytd. and woke up at 6.20am. so zombified in sch today.. seriously.. is tired until. my vision abit unclear lorr.. i walk down staircase not stable de. and even during recess.. im sort of eating. one mouth. and like damn slowli. and then rest on table.. hahah.. tai lei le.
then got D arts. nid to cheograph de dance. wow.. we had fun realli. but kao lahh.. abit pissed. i mean.. firstly all the sec 1s come and ding 1 sec4. and e china violin teacher dao pple and attitude like shitness... we got competition coming up de lor. then another thing is. i dun understand why teachers also like to push the blame to others and are not helping the situation. the china teacher told us to look fer a teacher. we called that teacher and that teacher told us to look fer another cause she not in charge. then another teacher tell us to look fer another teacher. and that another teacher told us to look for another teacher.. on whole round. nth was being done. irritated. haha. nvm. and then by tat time the pple in the room dou use finish le. but realli la kao de sec1s loorrr.. craziness them. anyhow curse senior. crap~
k then i come home. like six plus. then went home. and my rabbit is sick! argh. rabbit got running nose.. weird lah.haizz.. then chionged to hai die fer singing lessons omg.. no dinner for me.... =[[ im damn tired. and like got some test or smthing. and like i only can sing ~AH~ for 6 secs.. totally tired, no focus. haha the teacher said i was such a good example for lack of determination and focuz. well.. xi guan le.....
k.. alot of hw.. and shiying actualli DID hw?!?!?!?!?!? HAHAHAHAHA i even finished my maths weekend homework.. seee..~~~~~~ HIAK HIAK hmm wad else. yeay! got holiday! on friday.
ye xu you yi xie dong xi shi bi xu yao wang ji ye xu you nian tou gai chang fang zai xin li. ye xu ai you shi bing bu dai biao quan bu. dan ai. you hen da de mo li. neng gou chuang zhao qi ji. kan dao gai bian.
~tiredness... gan jue ni yi bu zai.
11:47 PM
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Freak. hah.time passes so fast. lol.
k lets see wad happened during this long period of not blogging.
hmm. firstly my rabbit died. sad
secondly, i bought another.
mum said last chance.
holidays shiying was totally in a slack mood
holidays was rather relaxing and sian.
basically watched tv and did nothing
eat eat eat,slp slp slp. play play play.
and holocaust and CIP project.
come my house and we watched movie, me and j and iso
iso is so freaked by the show.
weirdo..
lousy~ HAHAHHA
errr.....
we din finish/complete any projects!
LOL.
din do any hw.
zuowen i chiong today.
i got scolded abit for report book. hu cares.
crap.
scold lor.
err......
i din go church.
and.... hmmm....
im different.
weird me.
yeps.
craziness.
and pple just nid to keep harping on why im not wearing jacket everiday weird.
harlow.
somebody is trying to be normal and u make it like shes even weirder not wearing jacket
funneh.
somehow though.
like without the jacket.
i dun realli haf the guts to like moe pai in sch dunnoe why.
somehow.
maybe.
i dunnoe.
depends on mood?
i am such a freak and i noe tat so well.
i dunnoe whether im all that happy or anything.
or maybe rather.
i dun really feel anything.
lolness~
ohmmmmm...
feeling-less.
yuan lai cheng zhang de zi wei bu hao shou.
yuan lai cen jing yong you hai bi shi qu tong ku.
yuan lai wo zao yi ba yi qie dou gei yi wang le.
ok... keep smiling.. =]
if not. cant keep going towards any ambition.
even though those ambis. are impossible.
but. HAHA.
i really dunnoe.
somehow the mist has been lifted off
yet i wonder how long it takes for me to revert back again.~
kkay.. today went to heartland and hougang wib iso.
craxiness and swayness..
firstly saw hui min. she suddenly stand beside us.. without us knowing.
i stunned and shock tio.
then bought books,so to short cut.
and then went to hougang mall. buy things.bought watch
ate ajisen.
then we go pets shop.
outside de pet shop when i paying money.
saw PE teacher. she saw us too.
kao.. we are the late comers and ponners of PE.
so we siam like shit.HAHA
bet she knew it. lol.
give us that sinister look.
scariieeeeeeeeeeee...... HAH.
freak.
wo pa wo zao yi wang,...........
1:12 AM
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Sunday, March 09, 2008
yesterday, friday.. had quite abit of fun. HAHA.. cause firstly.. my form teacher.. damn funneh.. cause he wrote in my report bk: shiying has bonded well with her peers and gets along well wif her classmates. HAHA so sala.. then i go ask ber,iso and jamie who was beside me and they were like yarr.. HAHA.. then he ask huh.. wad i write.. then he read and say.. "ok lahhh.. cause u got a few fwens mahh there..." dots... weirdo.. then left sch.
haha.. kayy then i invited my juniors to my house and play games. we played the drinking game.. HAH damn funneh.. prank called bernice.. and her niece like saying to her then me too.. HAHA wad to do.. she's the onlie one hu doesnt get angry easily hahahah... KAY...
then went fer CCA late.. slack de.. and they stayed wib me until 7plus pm. HAHA.. so nice rite.
kayy today.. ver fruitful day.. went torebond me hair.. cut me hair.. and go pierce me ears.. AHHAHAH.. crap.. must ai mei. LOL....
anyway.. yeps...
HAPPY HOLIDAYS~
12:00 AM
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Saturday, March 08, 2008
too tired~
12:28 AM
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Thursday, March 06, 2008
yeay! i finally managed to create this public blog. HAHA.. crap leh... took me one night. tsk tsk tsk.. FAINT.. haha.. abit ugly sorrie.. and to all those hu hate fann wong. sorrie.. HAHA.. yeps.
Anyway, today, brr, ver cold in school.. LOL.. and nowadays im so not me.. WEIRD. LOL.. okay anyway.. yea time passed so slowly today. so sian. HAH... also got alot of work to do today lorr.. CRAP.. like hcl nid to zuo wen, ss nid to assignment and lit.. HAIZ i cant finish SS and lit.. DIE. LOL..
Anyway last day of sch tmr..
=))
and i still nid to go back to sch at 4pm for CCA.. haizz =dddddd HMPH.
~sick~
11:37 PM
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PROFILE
[Name]Shi Ying
[egg crack]18th Nov 1992
[skoOl]PL(S)
[CCA]Badminton/D ARTS
[Hobbies]Acting/Singing/Dancing
[Height] 164.5cm
[Spoken languages]English, Chinese and Rojak Dialects
[Music Schools]Lee Wei Song school of music - 2004
Music Story - 2006-2007
Hai Die ( Music Forest) - 2008
[Competitions]CSS ( 1 and 2 )
Teenage Icon Finalist 2007
School Competitions
[Performances]Community Centers Events
RCC Events
Outside Performances - Performing Group of MS
Teenage Icons- Teenage Bday Bash at DXO 2007
Loves
Fann
FCBC
SF
PL
My fwens
Computer
TIs
singing
acting
dancing
experiences
handphone
Wislist
1. Pink or Red and Black Laptop 2. Pink or Red and Black DS nintendo
3. More pooh bears
4. More bags =]
5. More clothes
6. Renovate my room
7. Nice watches
8. Pets (dogs or rabbits)
*Hope my ambitions/dreams can come true*
Ambition: Actress/Singer
Wants: To grow taller
Needs: To get slimmer
Aspire: To improve in acting and singing
Wishes: To learn acting,dancing and singing
Hopes : For joy and love
Thinks : Of getting whiter and prettier (like how i dunnnoe)
Sees: Getting into Mediacorp as my goal
Believes: That hardwork do pay off
Tries: TO do better in studies
Pray: That dreams do come true