hmm.. today is a boring day. I really dun like pple to ps me last min. well.... but i tolerate. and i forgive. 我觉得包容是最大的伟大 我选择包容
currenly pple say this song is the best. wad u tink.
Its so quiet. let me be emo awhile..
There's this girl in the mirror, I wonder who she is. Sometimes I think I know her and sometimes I wish I did. There is a story in her eyes, lullabies, and goodbye. When she's looking back at me I can tell...she's hurting inside. She smiles with all that she has left, yet tears are left un-dried. And though she's got so much to say, she bottles it up inside. If you look past her broken eyes to a shadow no one sees, a disguise so good that you won't recognize.Just because her eyes don't tear doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry. And just because she comes off strong, doesn't mean there's nothing wrong.A strong girl keeps her stuff in line-and with tears running she still manages to spit the simple words "I'm fine."
11:07 PM
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This world is damn freak. 说实在的,太多悲剧与悲伤了 results for the rest are back. For those who got good results. A sincere word of grats and work hard next year. For those who din score well. Suan le. just do ure best the next time round. Dun emo le~~ Some of u noe who this msg is for... yups.. :) JYJY ohhhh~~~ Yups. Anything can talk to me. :)
Anyway, Os is in its Mids. Well, should be ok-ok until now i guess. But i ver no confident for physics. No matter how ez, its still difficult for me. Haiz.... I slacked ytd and today. Ytd went haidie. was quite ok i guess. Stressed~ haha.. the piano teacher, Sendy expect so much from me. Oh no..~ i also no background leh, she like think i ver zai like tat.. NO loh haha And then we were filiming.. aha. funnehness. Then we all took the piano room like our cabin like tat, throw our things all over.. =P hee... and we stayed until 10pm =] YAY. today spent my whole day singing... I like to sing this song now :
~ sang by me. sorrie some parts nan ting :)
Well.. haiz.. sot of emo.. but nvm. i just cant understand why this world like got so much sadness like tat. Dun like dun like.. RAWRR
12:26 AM
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Monday, October 20, 2008
Support support
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Was a fun day today. Met Vic,Darie,Jiaying,Linda early at _____ and went around getting ready... Took bus to cherryhill and bus to expo. Was late. Met ber,jan,val Walk to hall 10 Walk to front, ushers say no seats, we went to toilet there sit. Thinking how to get hui out alone later. Din wan ___ to know and see us Alot of pple saw us We siam. Pray they dun tell hui. Pearlyn come. Service end Told pearlyn go find hui they all Took a long time. I spying outside. Ber and rest waiting at another place. We wait and wait. Hide behind toilet and followed them from the back. Sing bday song. Hui was... shocked? Was standing behind her din see her facial expression. LALALA Blow candle End. Weird talking. FUN FUN FUN other parts dunnid say le. lol. Ur a year older.. wakkakaka LAO LE LA
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Sunday, October 19, 2008
Happy Birthday hui!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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Saturday, October 18, 2008
我爱上了海蝶!!! hahha. yeps i dunnoe why but today haidie lessons totally rawked and i din studie. wakkaa. wasted one whole day but well, its worth it!!! =] im one happy girl...
firstly met darling,ting-er at the mrt, and I weren't late for once, although i did left e house quite late. haha. wore sth that well, i dun norm wear out, haha. darling say i look different =] hee. then we bought drinks and went to haidie. its weird that when we go there, we realised theres no one and the dance room din lock, so we used it. its a crazy time wif her, i had fun tho.we sang and danced and act until the others reached too, then i was too tired to do anything liao. haha. she's energy-absorbing man my dar.
haha. then had piano lessons, was alright, but i was rather stressed for the theory part, so difficult!?@#! haha well but still handle-ble, haha. so played tong hua and teacher said sing, so i sang and played once.. then she teached sth new to add on to the left hand part, then she finished checking every student and came to me, ask me to play and sing again...... then i said "huh mus sing ah..." she said" why not,你声音蛮好听的啊.." haha so sweet, its been long since anyone said that i guess.....haidie rawks/
then had dance, i guess it was the first time ever that i told myself that i must not give up on anything, so that the teacher wun black face me cause i was rather irritated last week.. i reflected haha, guess that no teacher on earth wud like her student to just use health prob as an excuse to not to some hard stuff in class, must try, i told myself to try my best for the physical for dance, and i really did. i wunder if xiaoke shifted the whole exercise to be against the wall for me haha, but if she did i thank her for it. =] heee... and she seemed not so dao to me today, i wunder why.... or its just my imagination haha. guess shiying shud really stop using alot of excuses to not get things done... =] well, she seemed more pleased wif me today, at leas she looked at me haha. And her ending speech was 发人深醒, dunnoe is shoot me or not, she said must 放开, 不能怕, 才可以做艺人 this strucked me hard, i realised that without hard work and wif all my excuses i wun go anywhere, even if i dun like dance and my aim is to become an actress, actress work nids mroe determination bah, its really difficult, but yeps i tell myself i will try and not give up so easily le..
谢谢小坷老师 and piano teacher.. haha made my time at haidie nice and i guess they are really nice teachers after all.... =] tho i doubt they will read this.. haha really thank them, i guessed i learnt alot today, haha... oh yea, today i danced my best today, haha darling, i sacrifice so much for u.. heee..haha yups darling taught us a dance today, and i did it, haha.... slowly step by step, guessed its the first time i dance like tat, its astonishing... but now all muscle ache and i nearly sprained my ankle, but it was cool, the four of us together... hee.. when its more perfect then maybe take vid put here gwa =]
hehe search for me. lol. and vote when theres voting, nid register tho haha, but well.... i noe im not gorgeous bla bla like duhhhh.. haha.. but just for fun =] thanks.. dun wan then dun go haha.. but seriously i dun exactly expect myself to make it anyway. =]
yeps yeps, i lovehaidie.
i guess, i tink too much and get ver affected by wad pple say and how they look at me smtimes.. well.. shant brood on it so much... but yea.... well....
love u darling =]
12:30 AM
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Thursday, October 16, 2008
shyt. i screwed up my prac. dunnoe wad happened. but im so sure i wun score well for it, much more for science. stoopid. i tink i got like 4out of 9 Qns CFM wrong le. Shiying die le la. crap self-psycho myself that its okay. but well its not. lol. crap crap crap....
btw i noe rainie sing better. duh. shes a singer. lol. so dunnid compare hah. n im not familiar wif the song. just heard it today. so some parts sing wrong. haha. its just i like the song. crap emo me~ tmr Os prac. wish me luck.
5:34 PM
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Sunday, October 12, 2008
there's just somethings i cant forget which is so irritating. its like once i tink abt it, tears just come. i hate this feeling. damn it.
Smtimes its like no one ever cares or rather, thinking abt the future, theres such a high possibility that i'll be all alone. when i nid smone, no one would ever be there i guess. Fwens cant be there for you forever, so hu i am to go to.. yeps alone in this big scary lonely world. its not helping being the only child. vulnerability seems to be too stupid a thing to show to people. its not helping.. rawrr.
Its not about who you are, its about what you become when you try. Dare to dream. Nope. i dun. Studying is not productive. Getting emo nowadays. I wonder why. Founder's day is coming. Os is coming. I've got no mood to study. positivity=0. fakeit.
Its so difficult to survive alone. Keep smiling... Yet u'll never noe the behind story. Dun ever remind me about it. I hadnt been posting negative posts for too long. I wonder what happened to me. -Control-
11:24 PM
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Saturday, October 11, 2008
i hate shiying. dunnoe why i suck so greatly. i tink i suck at everything. wad to do. shit, getting abit n abit more emo time is running out chances are flying past and im wasting my time gotta hurry and catch it yet its so sure i will slip and fall shiying gives up, i give up it had never worked well and will never do i suck suck suck. be it singing or dancing or acting or even character im not one bit better than anyone i wonder wad my quality is i seached and searched yet found nothing perhaps its meant to be its destined for me to never succeed no matter how pple cheer me on it seems to be of no use one mistake is too grave, the first impression stays. im dead dead dead. its gone im gone all gone. i hate to be like this but im just like this. i hate myself yes thats wad i mean i hate myself alot. i hate, detest dislike. theres a voice screaming in my head replaying that scene over and over again shiying u suck u really do i cant help it to think its true. i give up, its fated, i give up.
haidie lessons today, i screwed up big time. so wrong fuck me. maths tuition and i got damn lan results. oh man wads the use of even trying.
PROVE, prove ureself to be able to SHOW show pple u wan to REVEAL reveal the you.
being smone i want to be VS being myself. how the hell to choose. DAMN shiying u suck big time,. let the blood drip dear.
1:00 AM
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Wednesday, October 08, 2008
Haven't had time to post and update. miraculously i found time today and shall just blog. Yes Yes, Os is coming in 2 weeks and its indeed weird to see Shiying studying/chionging/making notes/having maths tuition every nite until 11pm. ITS WEIRD. i wonder wads up wif me anyway, lol, i also dunnoe.. hee.. but aiyaa shiying also not ver hardworking lah. Haidie lessons resume on friday and I'll be learning dance/piano/sing with a bunch of new friends? Sounds exciting?? haha. i am egg-citedd.. WOOHOO!
Today's chapel was the last chapel service im gonna have in my entire life i tink. since i doubt i can make it to any JCs with chapel anyway. HAH. hmm i nearly fell asleep tho during sermon. worship the songs all dunnoe -am i outdated or wad- and theres HOLY COMMUNION?!?!? weird sia?! haha. but not obliged to take it.. so.... haha. I love the ending tho, of the chapel service, its so sweet of the teachers to make a video for the Sec4 cohort even when they are so bz marking scripts, they din forget us =] Although i dun really noe all the teachers but the messages they left there are indeed so sweet. Its amazing how time passes so fast and its gonna be "leaving of the sheltering walls" soon. So SAD! Come to think of it, its gonna be a scary world out there, outside PL when ur alone unlike the PL family. HAIZ. shud haf cherished the time there more. Also, the teachers all went up stage and sang a song for us =] SO SO SO TOUCHING CAN?!?! awww it made Bernice cry, i teared tho. -thinking bout how teachers have been a caring lot towards me during sec2 and sec 3- Thanks. =]
Of course i doubt any PL teachers will chance upon this small little blog of mine. but just wanna say a great big THANK YOU to all PL teachers. hah.
Mrs Lum is charming Mrs Koh is funny Mrs Pang is nice Ms Hazelin is sugary Mr Lim is -shrugs- Mrs Loo is strict Mdm Hu is caring Miss Gan is absolute Mr Thomson is cute =.=
Ok, i got ver bad vocabs. hah. but ALL pl teachers are beloved! =] So memorable--- AHHHHH
4:35 PM
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Wednesday, October 01, 2008
Shiying wants a toy poodle =[[[
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PROFILE
[Name]Shi Ying
[egg crack]18th Nov 1992
[skoOl]PL(S)
[CCA]Badminton/D ARTS
[Hobbies]Acting/Singing/Dancing
[Height] 164.5cm
[Spoken languages]English, Chinese and Rojak Dialects
[Music Schools]Lee Wei Song school of music - 2004
Music Story - 2006-2007
Hai Die ( Music Forest) - 2008
[Competitions]CSS ( 1 and 2 )
Teenage Icon Finalist 2007
School Competitions
[Performances]Community Centers Events
RCC Events
Outside Performances - Performing Group of MS
Teenage Icons- Teenage Bday Bash at DXO 2007
Loves
Fann
FCBC
SF
PL
My fwens
Computer
TIs
singing
acting
dancing
experiences
handphone
Wislist
1. Pink or Red and Black Laptop 2. Pink or Red and Black DS nintendo
3. More pooh bears
4. More bags =]
5. More clothes
6. Renovate my room
7. Nice watches
8. Pets (dogs or rabbits)
*Hope my ambitions/dreams can come true*
Ambition: Actress/Singer
Wants: To grow taller
Needs: To get slimmer
Aspire: To improve in acting and singing
Wishes: To learn acting,dancing and singing
Hopes : For joy and love
Thinks : Of getting whiter and prettier (like how i dunnnoe)
Sees: Getting into Mediacorp as my goal
Believes: That hardwork do pay off
Tries: TO do better in studies
Pray: That dreams do come true