Friday, May 30, 2008
finally my com work.. arghh.. so nan de de.. haizz..ermm.. muchning on chocolate potato chips.. so nan de of me too.. i mean.. lol.. i hardly eat after 8pm.. but nid some "ecstacy".. lol.. haiz.....spent my day watching tv today..hmm 变奏曲，was ver nice.. today ending le..haha..if only really can like the show like tat.. keep redoing ure past mistakes until its almost perfect.. it would be great.. haiz..yeps.. impossible tho..lol..so the show like abit fairytale sia.. tsk.kayy... shit im pigging on chocolate..arghhhhhhhhh....chocolate royce~chocolate chocolate..cant slp earleh le..eat le must 3 hrs then can slp.shall camp tonite on my tv, shows and playstation again.but... im dancing soon rite.. -.-heee..dance, sing, photoshop..nxt week.if only holidays were never ending..IF ONLY...die.. talking abt dance.i scared i cant do it well.scared too hard.legs cant sync.shyt.and singing. omgthink now my singing ver badcant even sing high pitch.diee.梦仿佛要被吹灭了．
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Thursday, May 29, 2008
couldnt really post lately due to computer faultiness and also my laziness.. yeps. anyway slacking at home recently.. 不开心也好，开心也好，都没来得及在这里记下来，也就算了。。 也许这样也好吧。watching canto series called the seventh day, ver nice.. lol.. its weird how they add christianity into the show.. ver ver weird. lol... but still a nice show.. yepss. ver sweet, also pitiful.. but jiu nice luh. strongly encouraged.. and omg.. the dog inside the show.. is like super smart. hahaha. arghhh i also wan...
lets see..
i wanna get into poly, go mass comm, dang ming xing, stay myself, and buy a dog. yeps. hahahah
lalala.. if only dreams come true lahh.. haha
kk... hmmm.. wad else..
nothing much.. jsut excited that dance classes starting soon..
=]]]
lalallalala.. hab fun pple..
esp those hu are mapling lol~~ XD
5:37 PM
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Monday, May 26, 2008
ytd. went teenage see see look look.support pple.today went too.support pple.and joined.got in, by chance.sang really badly.losing confidence.saddd.siann.谁能体谅我有雨天。。
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Saturday, May 24, 2008
School, went to SPH today.. higher chinese excursion. hah.. at first tot it was stoopid but later i found out that what they say is exactly wad i wanna learn, haha mass comms. how to be reporter, editor. lol. so cool. im loving it. haizz.. if cannot be ming xing, then be the interviewer of ming xing also not badd... SPH is like so cool.. wooo hoooo.. had alot of funnn.hmm... mass comms.. 11 points. oh yarr report book back today.. so siann. lol... stoopid comment luhhh - consistent in attendance in sch and cca.. tink teacher really haf nth good to say abt me, but still must say sth good then write that? haha.. weirddd luhhhh... mass commsmass commsmass comms.oh yarr.. pple at sph also shared their experiences, examples are some reporters from sze chuan place who came back. yeps. what they saw that were not being published. also other reporters who focus on showbiz. haha share how pple shua da pai. alot of stuff.. i learnt alot.. and yes.. OMY. is a good website. check it out!~hmmm.. then went to bishan and watched accuracy of death wib hx. quite nice.. infront was abit draggy but i like the ending, esp de songg haha.. cant fin my drink and popcorn. lol.. haizz. ermm... yea.. im captivated by the song.. though i dunnoe wads its abt, dun u tink its like so hopeful and encouraging.. loll... i like it. heeee.. ermm.. bought another pooh today.. nid some joyfulness. not lasting but at least abit. yeps.thenn.. came back at like 10. haha. shuanggg.. ermm.. by2. now i tink they are not bad. lol. ~jealous~ they like so fair, slim,talented. haizz.. lol... and they so luckie.. haf chance.. but yar lahh they also kao hard work. hmmm... gen ta men xiang bi, wo cha de hao yuan hao yuan arhhh.. check them out!~.. at OMY.... haha... diaoo .. haizzzzzzzz..............wad else..oh... i realise sth.being unhappy doesnt help anything.i'll try. but i always go backwards =[ .if only there is nothing as failure and i can dream wad i wan...tmr got teenage icon 2008~~~!!!!!hu wanna join go walk-in audi~~ =]]]]go teenage webby~~!!hmm. is it right to not care abt how others look at u.and just trust ure heart?
2:42 AM
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Thursday, May 22, 2008
today is one of the crappiest swayest day in my life.. sth happened in the morning... shyt.. tink mite tio discipline case. damn it.. shant say anythin here.. lala, really wanna noe then msn me.. bleah. see if i wanna tell allalallala.. yarrr but its like damn shyt la.wad else.. chinese... read book.. oh yarr... i finished a story book called END GAME.. lol.. the book that smbody said it as so gothic llalala.. ok.. la.. not exactly. more of sadistic lol.. yea.. but i tink ver nice. heeee.. ermm.. wad happened is that the book is written in a way like counselling, then the main character will ans wad the lawyer ask, so that he can fite his case for him.. in the book, there are alot of desc about how the protagonist was bullied, GRAY, by the antagonist, Zorro.. alot of conflicts in between, bullying, hitting, blaming, causing serious injuries and death. until gray couldnt take it anymore.. then he brought a knife to school so tat he can use it as a defence. yet things went on badd.. tink he like suffering from depression liao. due to the death of his beloved dog cause by Zorro.. too many things and also his parents scolded/hit him, and his beloved drums being mutilated in school.. though he had talents, no one seemed to praise him for them. his gf in the end ditched him suddenly to go out wif a jock and alot of things happen, continued happening till a dark cloud surrounded him. this is when he decided to bring the gun to school and duh.. revenge.. killed alot of pple, those that he din wanna kill, his best fwen, his brother's gf injured, causing her to be paralysed.. and there are some pple hu he wanna kill hu did not die.. yea... he wanted to suicide but was stopped. yeps.. so facing the court lohh... no ending, for u to guess.. hahaha.. nice lohh. so ci ji.. lalallalayeps now reading another book. the black sheep.kayy.. then motivational talk today.. seriously i hate this type of.. arghh irritating stuff. but duh i was obliged to listen and guai guai sit there and copie some stufff..its really not fun.. truths.... difficult to take.. i dun like..then.. tmr got some sch excursion for higher chinese pple.. but one thing weird and stoopid is that.. they dun provide bus back which is equals to ditching us at toa payoh.. Wadde ritee???tskkkkk..nvm.. i go shopping from there.. hahaha.. lalallalala.siannnn..~freakk~oh and i still realise that wear jacket over uniform is so much nicer than just uniform hahaha.. f luh...hating everything agn.
11:20 PM
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Wednesday, May 21, 2008
无声呐喊haha. alot of pple agree that this is like so nice.. and yet so true. well me too. silent screams. haiz. shiying cant afford to go back to square one man.rawrr;;yet she can't carry on.sch was bo liao. chinese every day.. sian.haidied today. felt quite bad. haha. i tink i made huan jie like fed up wif me.cause of my refusals to do things and obey him and also talking back to him and not practising.but like today first time suddenly he glare me and like show me like bu shuang wor..eeks scarieee...heard that he was quite bz bah then alot of things i still irritate himtsk..lalala..sorrieeeeeeee........ heeebut seriously i scared of unplugged. super unwilling 2 sing wthout music and wif the key board notes.. eekz.i got kong ju. lalalllalala.shyt la.and kao luh.i hate hate hate hate hate herrawrrrits like so super irritatingi hope she goes for super long holiday soon man.arghhhhhaizzz..我不要你曾说雨下的时候别低下头 要等候奇迹降落 我不懂曾想一起拥抱的彩虹 为什么只剩下我 原来呀爱情是不会留下什么 只留下残缺的我 能不能再把你的爱借点给我 好让我继续漂流 我的倔强疯狂 不放 逞强 流浪 是否只剩一人在寂寞战场 你的摸样说谎 眼光 装傻 躲藏 我逃亡 乌云又把太阳与彩虹遮住了，我怎样都找不到。迷失在寻找的过程中， 不禁想想也是时候放弃了放弃那七彩缤纷，再回到大海的拥抱中。也许，在海漂浮的感觉比起在云端上躺着的美妙差很多但至少，从海上不可能坠落，没有这么痛反而云端实在是太遥远了。不要问我为什么这么做也许我已经不再相信自己`changing blogskin soon.`
12:36 AM
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Tuesday, May 20, 2008
haha.. stayed wif my dad fer e few days... and i was one happy girll... =] hee.. and then i dread coming back to srg. HAIZ. siannnz.. i wonder i wonder i wonder..... HAIZ.=]no prob man.我会好好的i wish hols never stop.its back to sch again tmr.. haizz教室里那台风琴叮咚叮咚叮咛像你告白的声音动作一直很轻微笑看你送完信转身离开的背影喜欢你字迹清秀的关心那温热的牛奶瓶在我手中握紧有你在的地方我总感觉很窝心日子像旋转木马在脑海里转不停出现那些你对我好的场景你说过牵了手就算约定但亲爱的那并不是爱情就像来不及许愿的流星再怎么美丽也只能是曾经太美的承诺因为太年轻但亲爱的那并不是爱情就像是精灵住错了森林那爱情错的很透明一直以来都不是爱。。。nth else to sayyyyybtw, happy bday sharonn dearrrrrr =]]]]]]]]keep smilingkeep happyingkeep dancingkeep singingkeep me companyyyy lalalalalala =]] sheng ri kuai leeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
12:55 AM
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Friday, May 16, 2008
'Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.' The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.'You're a Christian, aren't you, son?''Yes sir,' the student says.'So you believe in God?''Absolutely.''Is God good?''Sure! God's good.''Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?''Yes.''Are you good or evil?’'The Bible says I'm evil.'The professor grins knowingly. 'Aha! The Bible!' He considers for a moment.'Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?''Yes sir, I would.''So you're good!''I wouldn't say that.''But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't.'The student does not answer, so the professor continues. 'He doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him. How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?'The student remains silent.'No, you can't, can you?' the professor says.
He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.'Let's start again, young fellow, is God good?''Er...yes,' the student says.'Is Satan good?'The student doesn't hesitate on this one. 'No.''Then where does Satan come from?'The student: 'From...God...''That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?''Yes, sir.''Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything, correct?''Yes.''So who created evil?' The professor continued, 'If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.'Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues. 'Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?'The student: 'Yes.''So who created them?'The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question. 'Who created them?’ There is still no answer.
Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized.'Tell me,' he continues onto another student. 'Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?'The student's voice is confident: 'Yes, professor, I do.'The old man stops pacing. 'Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?''No sir. I've never seen Him''Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?''No, sir, I have not.''Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?''No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.''Yet you still believe in him?''Yes.''According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?''Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my faith.''Yes, faith,' the professor repeats. 'And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.'
The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of his own. 'Professor, is there such thing as heat?''Yes,' the professor replies. 'There's heat.''And is there such a thing as cold?''Yes, son, there's cold too.''No sir, there isn't.'The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.'You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that.There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the lowest -458 degrees.Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat.You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.'Silence across the room.
A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?''Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation. 'What is night if it isn't darkness?''You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and its called darkness, isn't it?That's the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?'The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him.This will be a good semester.'So what point are you making, young man?''Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time.'Flawed? Can you explain how?''You are working on the premise of duality,' the student explains.'You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure.Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one.To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.
''Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?''If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do.''Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?'The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.'Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?'The class is in uproar.
The student remains silent until the Commotion has subsided.'To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean.'The student looks around the room. 'Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?' The class breaks out into laughter.'Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain, felt the professor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain? No one appears to have done so.So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?'Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable.
Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. 'I guess you'll have to take them on faith.''Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life,' the student continues.'Now, sir, is there such a thing as evil?'Now uncertain, the professor responds, 'Of course, there is. We see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man.It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil.'To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God.It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God.God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart.It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light.'
PS: hmm hui, how relevant is that to our "argument" ytd? haha. =.=
10:31 PM
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shiying's heart died today again.不要问我痛不痛，不要问我累不累或许我就需要这些，来感觉我是真的还活着。。。 567999
9:31 PM
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Thursday, May 15, 2008
I am like so sad!!!arghhhhh...jteam course was cancelled. so sian. n i was so ver looking 4ward to that... but nvm.. since cant act.. im planning to learn dance.. HAHA. yeps.. parents say can liao le... yesh shiying shall work hard to achieve her dreams =]Results coming back.. i din really studie for MYE thus i have no high hopes fer it.. taking MYE as an experience of how Os will be like.. =] Prelims i think i will work harder.. I nid my Eng to buck up. =[ How ah?? i nid an A2 fer Eng, pass my maths. and L1R4 - 11.. to get into mass comms. how?!?!? LOL.. hmm results now :HCL - C6Eng- C5Maths - F9Science F9 Lit- ? tmrComb H - SS F9 Geog-? tmrChinese - A1i so think i dunnid my HCL at all.. LOL.HAHA.. weird sia.. k luhh... im astonished fer e sciences.. cause i tyco get alot correct LOL!!!~~ weirdd... and the joke is... my cell leader is like chem teacher-to-be. and her girls. BIS like getting 1st 2nd 3rd last in class... BESTEST LOL!!... hmm.. =] jy shiying.. oh oh.. and funneh.. my eng... compo get like 20/30 LOL.. and the teacher go and out ALRIGHT at all my positive positive gribbish! HIAK. funneh funneh funehh.. but i lsot out at compre.. haiz.. HEE...im working towards my ambition.its gotta be worth it :)ermm.hu wanna learn dance tgt?!??!?!
msg me =] !!!!
11:15 PM
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Wednesday, May 14, 2008
I so ver hate her.
12:02 AM
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Tuesday, May 13, 2008
SIan...... theres no way im gonna not get tanned if im not gonna wear jacket in sch.... RAWRR.. sunscreen lotion cannot provide free protection even if the SPF is 100 and unless it indicates there UVA/UVB. HAIZZZZZZZ.......................... avoid sun.... >>>>>.<<<<< ahhh!! =[
i just passed my hcl.. best rite.?? just pass haiz
4:18 PM
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Monday, May 12, 2008
ytd, went to dad's place. and watched the golden compass.. seriously, this show is highly influencial.. and not recommended for pple to watch but yet, i have to admit its a really darn nice show! =.= HAIZZ.. but its not good fer the mind luhhh.... Lets see this show is not as like "bad" as da vinci code where it guang ming zheng da rebuke christianity but the golden compass is like hidden meaning de those type of shows bah..... its really... nice and shyt im addicted to tat show.. BUT HIGHLY NOT RECOMMENDED!!~~~~~~~ dun watch HAHA
ok.. then today, churched.. stoopid bel and cher so late come.. u noe it was such a struggle+torture to walk into the hall and along the aisle alone so that i can make sure that there's seats fer us!! it was such a torture and im still like thinking whether to continue walking or wait fer them.. actualli i felt damn out of place can... ROAR. never ever tell me to do that again.. seriously i freakedddddd and i kept turning my head behind looking for them and call them like shyt.. UGH. i hated that feelinggggg.. hated it... ok.. ermm.. then pple joined, i felt alot better..
Stoopid mother's day. i hate it _ blanks_
kao luhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
fmyself.
crappppp
>.<>
12:39 AM
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Wednesday, May 07, 2008
today, eng paper was fine but physics paper i was dying.. i was like slping and stoning at the questions cause i dunnoe how to do ANY. hah.. wrote some crap... wad density = heaviness.. and i dun even noe wads density... and how to measure it. neither do i noe any focal points, hw to calculate ampere etc.. one word.. PHYSICS= DEAD
met yuxuan today. HAHA. she kindly gaf me "tuition" and helped me cancel out on some topics that are not so impt since im studying last min, HAHA. Shes great man.. everything help me short cut HIAK. amazingly met alot of plites at heartland today.. lol... pearlyn,lydia,huiying,ber. SO MANY. haha..
and then since i've alrd done badly enough for MYEs.. i tink i should give up mye in preparation for prelims.. i mean just take mye as a great eye opener to what the papers will be like.. then i also noe how to studie mah.. if not now also cluesless..
siann.. stuck wif running nose,flu, cough, sorethroat.. siann.. but tmr last paper.. friday hols.. im really tired mann.. HAIZ. now i noe wad a serious exam feels like.. HAHA
tiredness....
shhh..
let me blend in wib the silence.
ohmmmm
thanks xuan!!!~~~~
i'll look for u in june. HAHA
gd luck for ure lawyering HAHA
11:56 PM
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And then i realised that my body cant take this type of lack of slp (slp at 1 am wake up at 4am). falling sick.. just now in the exam hall freeze like shit... sorethroat, abit flu.. the norms. abit feverish in the afternn, now hao le.
Geog and HCL paper today.. wasnt very good haha.. no paper can be good fer shiying can.. HAHA. ermm.. wad else... no time to exercise but then i realised that actually my weight is rather acceptable, if my weight is gonna be 45 or lower, it will be underweight worr.. weirdd.
nevertheless.. im still "fat" and needs to lessen the weight man..
hmm.. haidie-ed today.. nothing much.. aiyaa.. they dun believe i sick HAHA.. bleah. huan jie also dun believe le.. so saddd..
tiredd shiying... a few more papers jiu wan le.
MYEs finishing.
MYEs dying..
shiying gaf up
HAHA..
shhhh..
"its not about winning but about who u become when u try"
~dance of the dragon
12:17 AM
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Monday, May 05, 2008
shyt today damn sway.. but quite fun
cause.. LIT siann write until shou suan... haizz wrote crap as usual.... HAHA.. really write until hand pain those type... and then i suddenly wonder who marking my zuo wen.. haha.. cause its A WHOLE LOT OF CRAP. hahahahahha
then went home.. like so earlehh... and friday no nid go sch.. HAHAHAHA ... lallaal.. went to eat buffet fer lunch.. DIE LE.. gang gang cai jian de 2kg must be gain back LERR.. ARGHH.. later go exercise.. oh and theres cocktail and wine served in buffet, but for above 18.. i din care just take.. HAHA.. yeps.. drank.. hmm.. lets hope im not allergic cause once i drank alot of red wine and the next day got allergy.. TSK.. HAHA if cannot drink wine in my whole life wo hui si de!!!
anyway, da shyttest thing that happened today is that i was using penknife cut smthing then accidentally cut until myself.. my leg.. SO SHYT.. RAWRRRR.. scarie.. cause rather deep sia still can see like the depth and my white blood cells are not working well!!!! AHHHHHH!~~~~~ and the penknife got rust =.=
shi tong de.. =.=
SIANN
i dun wan got hole there yeeeekz
styoopid its popping up ======.======= RAWRRR
k it looks not tat bad in this small pic..
zoom in and u'll see...
really, clik on e pic man..
RAWRRRR.
its as if i take knife and literally cut open myself..
damn it. i felt the blade inside man.
and i shock and quickly pull out.
DAMN.
its like so OPEN
seriously...
and thus i conclude that the human skin IS not ver thickkkkkk =.=
='''[[[[[
tmr got haidie.. and i cant slp late. but stoopid geog i haven studie
SHIT GEOG
later i fall aslp during haidie.
cfm de.. wanna bet?
7:20 PM
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Sunday, May 04, 2008
Went to church todayy....
church day is always a sway day::
hmm left house late, and was thinking whether to go church or go MS, in the end decided on church. leave the house walk to bus stop wif cher and took the bus.. then i realise i never bring my wallet... ver angry, da maid never put in when i told her to, cause i gan shi jian.. then she never put.. HAIZ.. i literally cried man... and called my mum.. (emo sia or depress lol) HAHA. k maybe cause suddenlie i feel damn lost, without either hp or wallet.. yea.. in the end got scolded by my mum but she brought to PL mrt for me. kk then chiong to church...
church day is always a reflective day~~
went there, reach church late but pple got help us choke seats. pastor talk.. just sit there fa dai, then send songs to pearlyn and vice versa.. den church end.. ( anti-social me) was listening to my hp music da whole time.. yarr... ermm then went wib hui and some pple go to mph warehouse sale. while iso and cher rush home to studie(guai kia sia).. but prob wib me.. gaf up le. jiu suan go back also wun studie so earleh, will watch tv, mite as well dun go home.. HAHA so walk walk walk wib them 1 hr , everywhere is books O.O make my eyes so ( yan hua liao luan) HAHA. kk.. then took mrt back to srg, wib hui ( she go boon keng) chat on the mrt.. abt last time sch life this type of things HAHA
And shiying realise sth. if u talk normally wib me, i will ans or will consider ans... if talk abt myself/sth deeper i shut off immediately. HAHA =.=
k.. then at home, watched 一心一得为善了.. fann and jeanette.. OMG jeanette shi shou de.. she wear de dress ed back got one line.. SO OMG. HAIZ.. jealousssss....
haiz.. i still nidda jian fei~
still nid to get preetier
still nid to be whiter. =.=
kk.. zi lian me. =.= after the show, play wib makeup and take pics.. TSK TSK.. zi lian.. dunnoe hu influence one HAHA
HAH i like e 2nd pic..
~k. signing off~
how to studie for lit?~???!?!
10:44 PM
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Friday, May 02, 2008
也许是因为今天考试的关系，有点不开心吧，就因为我昨天拼命学的一些 topics 竟然没有出。真叫人厌烦！让我形容一下今天考试的情景. 首先，早上还有多半个小时能够复习，然后就走到礼堂，进入了那冷冷的地方。开始会紧张，又有点兴奋。坐在位置上还蛮期待的。 我还以为只要读了全部战争的 topics 就可以了。 却一题也没出，叫我做考卷时边唉声叹气， 边硬着头皮crap le 几个paragraph. 我索性认为我这整个篇章都out of point.真的没得救了！做到一半手都写得痛死了，haizz 放弃。
把考卷交上后，还是无法忘了自己已经完蛋了的念头。为什么今天的topics都是on Singapore's economy, bonding and diplomacy 之类的东西！！！ 不知道是我衰还是什么，一开始就已被注定 MYE ~~~~完蛋。
休息时间，我并没有休息，在班上翻一翻maths notes, 却连一个formula都背不进。Social studies 受到了太大的打击，no mood for MYE le.. well.. if u are gonna fail one, no use to pass all the others. cause still is FAIL. still not equals to good results ah. haiz.. 有再一次进入礼堂。 这次心情不怎么样， de WANT to pass 的念头都不见了。看到那厚厚的考卷，我也不禁放弃了maths. yeps. im so gonna die. 我随便乱写了几个数字在纸上，mistakes 多多，失败。。。。
很累很累。
晚上时，到了houngang mall 走走，还书，买了一些东西。试着让自己开心一点。 因为最近都在学校不吃recess,所以比较多钱，想买什么就买什么。 找到自己要买的东西时还会不由自主地微笑，让我真真了解到，什么是真真的快乐。
快乐是-当你笑的时候，并不是为了给人看，而是因为那喜悦发自于内心。
看看我今天买了什么吧。。。。
我的精心搭配。。 好看吧！=]
hmm.有点忧郁， 想念过去。
后悔还么来得及珍惜拥有的一切，便就失去。
人是真的要面对死亡才懂得生存吗？
我想念它们。。。
我想挽留。
后悔莫及，却来不及补救。就再也没有机会了。
in rememberence of them..
((baybeeee))
((winwin))
haiz..它睡觉时很可爱吧。我可是好不容易才让它sleep in this posture de
还有多一只叫november，现在没有它的照片。因为在相机里。
I love you all.
也许因为有它们， 我慢慢长大。
我终于知道什么叫爱。
原来爱跟痛紧紧相连。
i miss ya all.
one of the greatest regrets in my life~
to not be able to cherish ure existence in the past.
turn back time.
i wish to...
no matter how much scoldings or unhappiness in the past, im willing to go through everything again.
if onli i can undo ure deaths.
i am willing
its far better than my life now.
生命的空虚
身边的空荡
只因为你们不在我身旁。。。
goodbye my love, 我的爱人再见。。
lastwords.`
9:52 PM
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Hmm.. today really no mood to studie.. no mood at all.. SO shiying gave up. HAH. its just MYEs rite?? lalallaa..
ok.. so today was desperate to watch dance of the dragon.. after 2 hrs of looking for pple finally found pple to watch wib me.. . HAHA.. its been long since i really sot of feel abit happier? ehhh.. yea.. watched at amk hub. i raelly no mood no mood today, no more positivity. yea so watched dance of the dragon then they came my house sing until 10+ HAH.. it was quite nice.. i wonder when we can go out again. its been long since i've met them.
Dance of the dragon.. not exactly smthing that i can say nice.. but of cause i still love fann wong. hmm.. its a film with little words and more of actions and facial expressions.. its rather difficult to answer and with like a chiemology thing to understand. but if u r realli able to appreciate some artistic work, its definitely one good show. i liked the part where fann wong danced and cried when she fell when she was dancing. when the main character said "get up, its not abt winning but abt who u become when ure on stage" so cool. HAIZ.. how many pple can actualli get up from where they fall man.. not ez.. YEPS.
tmr exam today went out and watch movie.
bestest le.
well. its like nan de i got ji hui to stay out at nite and so much freedom.
Let me.
positivity can really affect alot of things in life.
REALLY.
hu wanna watch fann wong dance of the drag show..
but if ur not really lover of fann wong really not recomended to spend that money on it.
BUT ..
if got pple wanna watch tell me k?
HEEEE
i dun mind another.
1:07 AM
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