Sunday, April 27, 2008
i know that im such a walking contradiction, but never did i think it would have anything to do wif studying. i admit its not tat i dun study at all, i never ever said that im not gonna study at all but rather i study last min, like before the exam one hr, chiong. why am i being "scolded" as irritating in a topic like this? and i dun even studie exactly for every test and say i never..i just study last min??? during recess if theres a test later just to get my mind off food! I did say i nid to lose weight.. its just a distraction yo~! and hu says i always studie? i read story book too can? during recess.... i din even regard studying as a bad thing that i cant tell pple i do.. but the fact is LAST MIN~~~~~~!! its a great difference.. its a fail but dun fail too badly thingy. wads wrong man.. wads wrong..
kkay..
not exactly happie today.
din go church. din feel like it, and watched shows at home my hk shows.. chasing it. and wtf, i got scolded at home fer nothing! totally nothing and she shouted and screamed at me. im so irritated haiz.. =[ sadd.. dun wanna go into detail, but yar.. tis seriously not my fault this time.. its just about how she feels, wad she wants. is
gambling really so impt?!?!?!?
nvm. then at night, watched my fann wong.. haha liao zhai was so nice.. touching and sad. dunnoe why, i somehow prefer shows that are rather touching and saddening rather to those comedies.. haizz.. yarr liao zhai is so nice. haizzz.. will miss it.. today last epi. nth else to look forward to during weekends.
mothers' day approaching, yet i dun find any meaning in it.
sian luh.
i hate it.
hate myself.
kao.
Once upon a time,there was an angel.
she loved to help others with her magic
so that she could smell the taste of bliss from those she has helped.
One day,she encountered a poet.
He was young,handsome,rich and talented.
Also he had a beautiful wife
However he was sad and asked the angel for help
he asked her for extra blessings
The angel thought for a long time for a way to help this poet.
She finally decided on giving him nothing.
instead she took away everything he had.
Half a month later, she met the poet again.
He has become a failure in life.
Then the angel gave him everything back.
Another half a month passed, and the angel met the poet again.
The poet thanked the angel for the blessings.
Humans are ver interesting creatures
We treasure what we have only when we are about to lose them
Actually, bliss is often right infront of us.
There is no definition for it
A minor detail in life may touch ure heart
it all depends on ure perspective
The key to a blissful life is to treasure wad u have.
YET...
Alot of times, the scars we get during our growing period are not unlike the regrets we have in our lives.. Some are proud of their scars but more are ashamed of them.. they try to cover them up, get rid of them.. They just wan to forget about them.. But from the medical view, scars are the body's memory of traumas.. They serve as cautionary reminders of the lessons learnt.. Hence if u wanna forget them, you first shud haf the courage to face them..
Obviously i dun. i dun. i dun.
some things can never be forgotten.. neither can we escape from it.
somethings cant ever be gotten rid of
why shud i try so hard to make myself more positive..
why shud i...
however, i admit, there is a second part to the previous paragraph.. to those who would rather the positive way of thinking read on....
There's a german proverb about trees.. It says the strongest parts of a tree are where its scars lie.. Trees are often under the attack of the elements.. The trunk and branches will break and fall..But the tree will recover and grow again.. Though the scars are ugly, they're also the hardest parts of the tree, they can support the tree to grow.. The moral of the proverb isnt hard to understand as everyone has his own story of a stormy encounter.. It may be the death of one's beloved, it may be simply some upsets in one's job.. I dun intend to compare which kind of frustration is greater than the other, I just believe even before man dominates the earth, nature has given him already a survival instinct which helps him grow.. Even after setbacks, he can walk again against the headwind..It's exactly like the tree's old trunk..We maynt have many dilemmas in life but what should we do when they appear? Shall we allow them to control us or we put destiny in our hands? There's no right or wrong, good or bad.. As long as we're like the old scarred tree, we'll take charge of our fate and direction.. Even under adverse conditions we can still live a good life....
i find it difficult to believe.
but i know theres two ways in which u can look at things.
i know.........
=internal conflict=
我宁可一直站在雨中
~dun mind me~
just take it as im talking rubbish
11:21 PM
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